A Belated Resolution

It's been forever since I've updated, but here goes.

This is not a belated New Years resolution; this is a belated life resolution, because this is something that needs to be carried out over the course of my lifetime, not simply the next year. I admit that this can't happen instantly, but I'm sure as hell going to give it a shot, so here goes.

I have a new mantra/philososphy / what have you, simple in thought but difficult to carry out. I do not make apologies for who I am. This isn't "I'm here, I'm queer, get used to it." This isn't about an identity I accept and vowing to live it despite criticisms. This is about the person I am, in my entirety, and that it's my right to simply be. By "not making apologies," I mean I don't need to justify my tastes; I don't need to justify the actions I take that lead me toward happiness. I don't reserve my emotions if responding to them may be difficult for you; it's my right to be honest towards who I am. I will no longer hold myself in check because it makes life a little less rough. I reject an external locus of control; I am the only one responsible for the choices I make, and I do not apologize for my decisions, only for negative effects that I did not anticipate. I will make my choices as I see fit, and only as I see fit; I do not need to saccrifice my own happiness to avoid conflict.

Like any resolution, this is a process. I don't expect it to happen over night, I'll be making steps. Continually, making steps. Hopefully 2006 is just the beginning in no longer compromising what I want and who I am for the sake of not stirring the waters.